And the holidays have been a real mixed bag. It's been joyous spending time with the children without the distractions of everyday life, but there was having to drop them off with J. several times and not being with them for New Year. It's been relaxing to be able to stay in my pyjamas on the sofa all day with endless cups of tea, my knitting, the computer and a fire, but there has also been a fair bit of walking on eggshells around hard-to-please people. It's been enjoyable having so much time with B., both of us getting on with our own thing, in the same house rather than separately, but there has also been homesickness for Holland on New Year's Eve - it just isn't the same in Britain. It was great picking up the children this afternoon after 5 days without them, but it also meant saying goodbye to B. and a return to our normal routine again.
Isn't it odd how sometimes you can feel happy and sad at the same time.