Saturday, January 30, 2010

Angry and upset

Those of you who follow me on Facebook or a couple of forums already know this, but last night I came home to find my house had been broken into. I came home in the dark, on my own, to find that the bathroom window was wide open. I walked out again and got my neighbours to come in with me. At first it seemed nothing was missing, which made me wonder if I'd disturbed them. The police were fantastic, someone was round within the hour, a forensic expert came over and covered the bathroom, hallway and upstairs bedroom with silver dust, and they were very concerned with my welfare. It wasn't until after they'd gone that I found that some jewellery had gone missing. Over the course of today I've discovered more and more places they've had a good look through, and what exactly is missing. It seems they were really only after jewellery, and only gold at that. The item that I'm most upset about, is a ring that my mum gave to me when I turned 18 and that I was supposed to give to my daughter if I ever had one on her 18th birthday. I hadn't worn the ring for a long time, but it was there waiting for I. to turn 18.

The weirdest feeling of all this is not feeling safe in my own house. I keep jumping up, wondering what's going on in my bathroom or why the security light by the garage is on, wondering if I heard something or someone. I've lived in this house for 15 years and never felt unsafe here, but suddenly I'm jumpy, edgy. I'm sure it'll pass, same as the anger will pass. But I'm not sure I'll lose the sadness of losing some items that had emotional value to me, but don't mean anything to the person who took them, apart from maybe a few quid.

PS Things with mum are okay at the moment. She had a CT scan last Tuesday and we're awaiting the results right now. The surgeon who saw her, was quite clear he didn't think her symptoms showed a return of the cancer. The scan will show whether he was right or not.